"Afraid of falling ... in love"

We experience so much life and those who we think are for us are really against us and those we believe are against us, some kind of way was always meant to help us. Life has a funny way of showing you the real treasure from the fake. In writing this blog, I thought, what would be a better way to get this off of my chest and even better, help someone else. I haven't truly dated in a while. My heart has been set on learning to love myself, love God and others genuinely. Then, I know I'd be able to openly engage the responsibility of loving another. As much as we like to control our feelings and who we love, most times that's in complete control of God's doing. He has our BEST interest at heart. I'm good at telling everyone not to be led by their heart but to lead it because your emotions don't consider the logical aspect of decision-making like your brain does. Now, I have to live by my rules and advice lol. I spent the last 3 years of my life "trying" to make wise enough decisions to not hurt myself & others in making logical-decisions... but ended up doing just that very thing I was trying so hard to avoid!

When we pray, we almost have to leave the way the results will come to us. I say this not to leave expectation out -- but the way we receive an answer from God isn't necessarily how we will receive it. The God of the heavens & the earth thoughts are higher than ours. We won't necessarily think of every detail & purpose of something we prayed for. So rather than praying and looking for the answer the exact way we expect to see it, leave that part up to God. I've missed so many answered prayers, promises from God because my answers came in a different package from what I expected. I knew exactly what I wanted and prayed to have just that (how selfish of me by not leaving room for God to do His tweaking). God gave me what I wanted but better -- because it looked different, I passed it up. In regret, I look back and say to myself, forgive & move on. God has so much that He wants to give but I just need to trust Him and accept ALL that He gives! Learning to be CONTENT is another key to a joy-filled life. Even when we don't see the end (because majority of the time we won't) ... still TRUST God at His word! About 2 months ago, a guy proposed to me. I didn't accept the proposal because what I thought I wanted at the time wasn't in him. Soon after what I wanted wasn't what God has for me. Even though we want certain things or people in our life, it may not be what's BEST. We can't always see that at first, but going forward with what God is trying to do in our lives, we will eventually begin to see the blessings unfold. I was holding back the possibility of ever feeling a certain way about this guy. I didn't want to fall in love with anyone. & plus, I was afraid to give my heart to a person who I didn't know would cherish it but distort it.

My advice to anyone, to take chances in life, not wild but wise ones and accept all the possibilities of what God is doing in your life. You're being led by the Holy Spirit, just let go & let God lead & guide your every footstep. Don't regret, just move forward in knowing that even when you mess up or pass up answered prayers, there's so much more in store. 

"Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us." Ephesians 3:20